Randall is in UT for his second week, pounding the pavement, looking for a job. I think he's doing a good job and I'm proud of him. The boys just said bye to him this morning but already miss him. Unless he gets a job this week I am guessing we might not get to physically see him again for another couple of weeks. But it's a little difficult to project what is going to happen with things right now. Why am I blogging tonight? Oh yah, remember. Every night that Randall isn't home I don't sleep well. But tonight I came up with an idea. Instead of laying in my bed watching primetime then shutting things off and going to sleep I would watch my shows while on the treadmill. That way I can get myself nice and tired. Then after I get ready for bed I'm going to read scriptures. Right now I am downloading the audio of the New Testament. I can listen and/or read my scriptures until I'm too tired for wakefulness. Hopefully that will get me into a good sleep cycle and I'll be more restful through the night.
This last weekend the boys and myself were together with Randall for my brothers mission farewell. All in all the best word I could think of to describe how it went was 'perfect'. And it was. The beach on Saturday, church and family and friends on Sunday... perfect. I couldn't be more blessed. And now I'm home in a clean house. Clean! Lovely...though I wouldn't go so far as to call the cleanliness of my house perfect.
So eventhough I am for the time a single married woman, things are wonderful. And hopefully they will increase in blessings as Randall and I work together to give our little family what it needs so we can all be together again soon.
Building Heaven on Earth
Tuesday, September 23, 2008
Saturday, September 13, 2008
Somewhere Over the Rainbow...
there's another rainbow... no I'm just kidding. That's a quote from the TV show Arrested Development. But the title of this blog does reflect the current mood of our home now. Like I have told a couple of you, things are looking up for us now that Randall and I have had time to sit down and talk. We now have a plan of action. It's on! And we're gunna bring it.
Randall is going to head down to UT to apply for jobs. He will be getting a call this week from one company and hopefully he can have an interview while he's down. I'm very optimistic. Randall has been much happier since he quit his job and it has positively affected our home. Unhappiness occurs incrementally so I hadn't really noticed how much his misery was affecting everything until life became immediately better. AND... right now BYU is pummelling, destroying, killing, rippin it up, etc etc. That helps. *wink*
We are also making an insanely quick trip to So Cal which, though it will be difficult driving wih three pups that far, I am totally phsyched about! My brother is having his mission farewell. He's going to Billings, MT on the 24th. WOOHOO! His mission is right next door to us. How cute of him. We're going to be at the beach this time next Saturday. Awesome.
Oh, I have glasses. Man! Someone should have warned me about glasses! My depth perception is totally messed up. If I had known it was going to mess with my head this much I would have waited longer... I mean I wasn't blind enough to have my liscence revoked...
Randall is going to head down to UT to apply for jobs. He will be getting a call this week from one company and hopefully he can have an interview while he's down. I'm very optimistic. Randall has been much happier since he quit his job and it has positively affected our home. Unhappiness occurs incrementally so I hadn't really noticed how much his misery was affecting everything until life became immediately better. AND... right now BYU is pummelling, destroying, killing, rippin it up, etc etc. That helps. *wink*
We are also making an insanely quick trip to So Cal which, though it will be difficult driving wih three pups that far, I am totally phsyched about! My brother is having his mission farewell. He's going to Billings, MT on the 24th. WOOHOO! His mission is right next door to us. How cute of him. We're going to be at the beach this time next Saturday. Awesome.
Oh, I have glasses. Man! Someone should have warned me about glasses! My depth perception is totally messed up. If I had known it was going to mess with my head this much I would have waited longer... I mean I wasn't blind enough to have my liscence revoked...
Here's a pic. And a few random others. Good times.
Saturday, September 6, 2008
Saturday isn't such a special day
Well, unless your only criteria for Saturday is that it is the day you get ready for Sunday. I guess then that Saturday is a special day. But at our home it doesn't seem much too different than the school week. Randall works on Saturdays. He does get Mondays off, and not to be a compainer, but it just isn't the same. I have to watch the kids all Saturday long- alone. And, as a bonus, Peter doesn't have school, so I really have to watch all the kids all day long- alone. I know, I know, I should be grateful that I "get to" "play with" the kids All! Day! Long! See, when you look at it like that, then it seems a lot more exciting. So maybe I just need an attitude adjustment. But then I could say that about everything. The boys think Saturday is extroardinary. They get to watch Saturday Morning Cartoons. And, well, that pretty much means they watch Tom an Jerry for and hour... it's pretty freakin' sweet. But then what? I have no money to go somewhere with them. And having three makes it rather impossible to take them by myself to a public place. Most neighboors around here go places each Saturday so there are no kids to play with.
So, what it comes down to... which is generally the conclusion most moms come to... is that I have the wrong attitude and I need to do something different so that Saturday is a special day with me and my boys. Yah. *sigh* why can't I just be 14 again... I had so much energy and such a drive to run and jump and skip and hop and spin and spin and spin around. Now I'm tired and probably lazy and I just don't feel like playing Hi Ho Cherry-O again. And since Monday is a school day it just seems like the other days of the week except that I see Randall around the house while I take care of the kids. I see him on the computer. I see him taking care of his truck. I see him working on the yard. I see him watching Price is Right. So I guess I feel like him having Monday off is much like him not having a day off. And I know he really dislikes having Monday instead of Saturday off as well. Especially since Peter is in school.
Hey so on a good note (because I could keep talking about this but I think you've had enough) I have 13 piano students now. Maybe I could just teach piano for a living and Randall could stay home. Muah! I got my very first pair of glasses, which, yes, I do consider that a "good note". Though it drives me a bit crazy, it is nice to see the world more crisp. Like my computer screen. Peter loves school and is making some great friends. Andrew is pretty hilarious. And Blake makes gutteral "uh-huh" sounds when I'm nursing him and I say it to him. It's awesome because he won't do it when we're not nursing. Silly kid. Oh and his hair is coming in and is this beautiful strawberry blond. Our bedroom is lookin wicked cool because we moved our theater stuff into it as well as the computer. I took Peter to get his foot fitted for his tap shoes. During the week I wake up at 5:30 so I can get ready and read my scriptures before the boys get up at 7. And I get to go shopping for piano books today! I love the piano store. LOVE IT! Though, having to take the boys there by myself is very dangerous to the instruments and books an very stressful to me... and we've gone full circle. Maybe I'll wait until Monday...
So, what it comes down to... which is generally the conclusion most moms come to... is that I have the wrong attitude and I need to do something different so that Saturday is a special day with me and my boys. Yah. *sigh* why can't I just be 14 again... I had so much energy and such a drive to run and jump and skip and hop and spin and spin and spin around. Now I'm tired and probably lazy and I just don't feel like playing Hi Ho Cherry-O again. And since Monday is a school day it just seems like the other days of the week except that I see Randall around the house while I take care of the kids. I see him on the computer. I see him taking care of his truck. I see him working on the yard. I see him watching Price is Right. So I guess I feel like him having Monday off is much like him not having a day off. And I know he really dislikes having Monday instead of Saturday off as well. Especially since Peter is in school.
Hey so on a good note (because I could keep talking about this but I think you've had enough) I have 13 piano students now. Maybe I could just teach piano for a living and Randall could stay home. Muah! I got my very first pair of glasses, which, yes, I do consider that a "good note". Though it drives me a bit crazy, it is nice to see the world more crisp. Like my computer screen. Peter loves school and is making some great friends. Andrew is pretty hilarious. And Blake makes gutteral "uh-huh" sounds when I'm nursing him and I say it to him. It's awesome because he won't do it when we're not nursing. Silly kid. Oh and his hair is coming in and is this beautiful strawberry blond. Our bedroom is lookin wicked cool because we moved our theater stuff into it as well as the computer. I took Peter to get his foot fitted for his tap shoes. During the week I wake up at 5:30 so I can get ready and read my scriptures before the boys get up at 7. And I get to go shopping for piano books today! I love the piano store. LOVE IT! Though, having to take the boys there by myself is very dangerous to the instruments and books an very stressful to me... and we've gone full circle. Maybe I'll wait until Monday...
Wednesday, September 3, 2008
They are SO LOUD!
Could my boys be any louder at this moment? Let's see if the neighboors complain because I kicked them outside.
Anywhoo, I thought I'd type some stuff.
Life is kind of crazy right now for us. Randall is looking for a new job whilst barely holding on to the one he currently has. He just hates his job so much that it's affecting his mood and his ability to just function. So... the job search begins. And though he is searching the nearby areas, he has also applied for a job in Wyoming, Colorado (in two different locations), and Arizona. Can you imagine how much it makes my head spin to think about moving states again so soon? Peter just started school. He has made so many good friends. The way I see things is this: every aspect of my life and my children's lives is fantastic since we've moved here... but my husband is miserable. Isn't that an awful wrench to throw in? I feel so bad for him. And, since I am inextricably connected to him, and honestly his pocketbook, that wrench is pretty big.
So, what does this mean for us? I HAVE NO IDEA! He could find a job here and we could be staying until his parents get home. He could get a job within the month and want to be moving, or in the next few months. Who knows?! I really love it here. *sigh* I did suggest to Randall that if he finds a job in another state that he should go by himself, find a family in the church to stay with, and check out the area and the job for a while before we move the whole family. That doesn't sound like much fun, but I don't want to move so far again only for that not to work out and have to move again. It is so hard to move.
I really do just want Randall to be happy and satisfied with his job and his life. I will move anywhere for him so he can be successfull. He is so smart and clever and quick-witted. He is capable of so much. I don't want him doing some lame job that takes him nowhere and pays so little that we can barely afford to survive so that I can keep living in a WONDERFUL home that isn't mine, in a neighboorhood that though I love, I have not earned.
Randall talked to his awesome brother Kendall, who I am pretty sure always gives Randall exactly what he needs to hear (thanks Kendall), and has come to the conclusion that his first priority should be to get back to a position where he is able to provide for his family in the industry where he is knowledgeable. Then he can look for other things to help him get further. Randall thinks about going to school or changing his career path completely, but Kendall pointed out that those things are very overwhelming to consider when the basic needs for your family are not being met. Very good advice. And, trying not to make this already long blog any longer, I'm probably not giving the full brunt of his advice any justice. Seriously, Kendall and Randall think so similarly that when they talk to each other Kendall just seems to say aloud the things Randall is thinking or feeling in a way that Randall is able to step outside of his situations and look at them more clearly.
And that's where I'll end for now.
*smile*
Anywhoo, I thought I'd type some stuff.
Life is kind of crazy right now for us. Randall is looking for a new job whilst barely holding on to the one he currently has. He just hates his job so much that it's affecting his mood and his ability to just function. So... the job search begins. And though he is searching the nearby areas, he has also applied for a job in Wyoming, Colorado (in two different locations), and Arizona. Can you imagine how much it makes my head spin to think about moving states again so soon? Peter just started school. He has made so many good friends. The way I see things is this: every aspect of my life and my children's lives is fantastic since we've moved here... but my husband is miserable. Isn't that an awful wrench to throw in? I feel so bad for him. And, since I am inextricably connected to him, and honestly his pocketbook, that wrench is pretty big.
So, what does this mean for us? I HAVE NO IDEA! He could find a job here and we could be staying until his parents get home. He could get a job within the month and want to be moving, or in the next few months. Who knows?! I really love it here. *sigh* I did suggest to Randall that if he finds a job in another state that he should go by himself, find a family in the church to stay with, and check out the area and the job for a while before we move the whole family. That doesn't sound like much fun, but I don't want to move so far again only for that not to work out and have to move again. It is so hard to move.
I really do just want Randall to be happy and satisfied with his job and his life. I will move anywhere for him so he can be successfull. He is so smart and clever and quick-witted. He is capable of so much. I don't want him doing some lame job that takes him nowhere and pays so little that we can barely afford to survive so that I can keep living in a WONDERFUL home that isn't mine, in a neighboorhood that though I love, I have not earned.
Randall talked to his awesome brother Kendall, who I am pretty sure always gives Randall exactly what he needs to hear (thanks Kendall), and has come to the conclusion that his first priority should be to get back to a position where he is able to provide for his family in the industry where he is knowledgeable. Then he can look for other things to help him get further. Randall thinks about going to school or changing his career path completely, but Kendall pointed out that those things are very overwhelming to consider when the basic needs for your family are not being met. Very good advice. And, trying not to make this already long blog any longer, I'm probably not giving the full brunt of his advice any justice. Seriously, Kendall and Randall think so similarly that when they talk to each other Kendall just seems to say aloud the things Randall is thinking or feeling in a way that Randall is able to step outside of his situations and look at them more clearly.
And that's where I'll end for now.
*smile*
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